I really really really need to be up and at the gym right now, but I woke up with a headache from grinding my teeth and dreaming crazy so I may just say…sit. drink coffee. rest. This morning is filled with about three or four clients, and then I will make the journey westward to my hometown. I will gather with friends. And we will go to the funeral of one of our mothers.
Here are a few things that have developed this week.
I have to buy a lawn mower. I’ve had a “loaner” from a friend the past three years. I use “quotes” because every year he’s said, Just Keep It. It’s yours to have. and I would say, “oh noooo, it’s okay” and after three years of that, I said, “OKAY” and thought that was sweet, I have a lawn mower.
This week I get a text from him that said, “hey, do you still have my lawn mower?”
So I’m on the lookout for a mower. I was thinking pawn shops. Just something to get the grass cut until I can save up for a really good one…but I won’t need it for a while…just one more thing on the list.
In Other News:
Last week, I met someone. A guy. An aquaintence of a friend. He was nice, and kind and we talked easily with each other. We went out last week. Spent 3 hours talking and laughing. It was actually, surprisingly, nice. No spark, no za za zu, but I had pretty much wrapped my head around that not being an issue. We went out again last night, to a really nice place for dinner. Well. We didn’t really eat dinner. We had two appetizers. And they were decadant and delicious and I was ok with the points/calories I was eating and drinking until he told me he’s still married to his wife. Seperated but married, nonetheless.
Now. We all know I gave up married men for Lent years ago. All I could think of was, “I blew my weeks worth of points AND missed trivia with my friend last week FOR THIS?????”
I’m annoyed. Disappointed. A little angry. My clenched jaw headache is reminding me. The Voices have started marching in time like a damned band in the Macy’s Parade. Girls all around me date date date. They go from guy to guy like the people bouncing on those red balls on Wipeout.
I’m not saying he’s not nice, still. I’m not saying that I wouldn’t hang out socially with him with other people. I’m not saying I don’t appreciate his honesty…
I’m saying I don’t go out with married men.
Gah. Gonna just shake it off and move on. My family is coming in this weekend. NCAA Basketball starts tomorrow. Sean Patrick turns 40 tomorrow! It’s a big big week full of big big fun so I’m not going to let this be a blot on it. And really, it’s nothing compared to what my friend Tara is dealing with today. We’re all too damned young to be losing our mothers…so there’s some perspective.
and it’s going to be 75 degrees today.
So. That’s what’s going on over here, how’s your life?