Spectacular Spectacular

I’ve been fearful this week, deep into my gut.

Fearful of what I’m witnessing, the terror and rage and hate and destruction.

And that’s just on social media.

I’ve been fearful for our world as we know it, fearful of our lives and thinking about the way they can be devastated in a moments notice. I’ve been fearful of the next shoe to drop. Locally. Nationally. Globally.  I’ve been fearful of what fear is doing to us as a society, moving us so far away from our humanity that it is difficult if not impossible to recognize ourselves anymore.

I’ve never had fear reside in my life like this. Mom always said, “Misti, you’d dance with the Devil if he could two-step. That’s why I worry.”

So this is a new kind of ick, and I don’t want it to settle in, pitch a tent and live inside of me.

I know that many out there, friends, family, acquaintances must be dealing with the same thing. We are all trying to navigate it, and while some are doing that quietly, some are putting on a show that compares to “Spectacular! Spectacular!” 

I know some of the things I’ve read this week make me stop and double check who I’m reading, because oh my Lord, the anger and the hate…that doesn’t live naturally in these people. It’s been perhaps the most polarizing time, the most polarizing topic I remember witnessing. I see loving, generous, and Godly people who are baring their teeth and behaving like barbarians. In the name of God.

That breaks my heart.

It seems to me, that when we feel passionately about something…that is a good thing.

It’s when we lose sight of the ability to understand and communicate with those that feel just as passionately about the other side, that we begin to erode.

And hey, I don’t hang out with people and talk non-stop with those who think that people I love are abominations and shouldn’t have their civil rights. I’m not suggesting that.

The danger comes when we begin to disregard civil thought, logical and critical thinking and dialogue that includes all sides, and only focus on our own.

We have history that shows us what destruction comes from thinking like that.

I think we’re all reacting, living in this fear.

It seems to me, that’s what the bad guys want.

Turn on each other.

Fight each other.

Hate each other.

Destroy friendships and cut ties with those that you once loved.

Set it all on fire as you walk away.

Nurture and feed your anger.

Participate in social media with the intention of degrading those that have a different thought.

You either believe exactly like me or your are the enemy.

Behave that way. Break each other down.


I don’t think anyone wants to open the doors to terror in our world. Come on in! Blow us up! Have a great day! I think we can all agree that we do not want that. Right?

I don’t think that we are all so inhumane as to not see the need, the desperate need to help our brothers and sisters on this planet. From our homeless, to our addicted, to our children, to our veterans, to our elderly, to our hungry, to those seeking a better world in our country. Right?

There’s a middle conversation here, that no one is having. I’m only seeing one side or another, tearing the other side down in a bloody, hate driven war.

And that might be what scares me the most.

We don’t really even need the bad guys.

We’re doing their work for them.


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All week I’ve been thinking about writing, thinking about telling you about my crazy last week(end), and my launch into my 45th year.

It was one of the craziest, break-neck speed weeks I’ve had in awhile, and I actually did try to come down with a little cold because of being so worn out. It was Homecoming at my university, and as an alumni board member, I had work to do. There is a certain expectation of activities that a board member must participate in, but last weekend, many of us in this particular group really showed up. Our executive director made mention that he’s never seen a board so active in a homecoming weekend before. That made me really happy.

We were there, we were laughing and smiling and soaking it all up. We sat with young scholarship recipients at a dinner on Friday night and talked to them about their campus experience. We sat through the Hall of Fame and Young Alumni recipient luncheon on Saturday, and I got to do the introductions for these amazing alumni. More laughing and soaking up the sunshine.

Honestly, this was the first homecoming I’ve ever attended. I never wanted to go, because my USAO friends weren’t going to be there. The majority of attendees for homecoming are the OCW ladies, and while I enjoy spending time and learning their stories, I missed my community of USAO people.

I missed Talaura and Cindy and Kirk and Carsten and Lorianna and Roger and Ma.

I missed John. and Chris.

I missed that group of friends I knew when I was with my first husband.

Greg, Hucks, Joe.

My wish for next year is to see John’s memorial scholarship funded and awarded. I give what I can everytime we have a board meeting. All gifts are valid and appreciated, right? We only have a little over $1000 left on it so I believe it can happen in time to award.

My wish for next year is to work to reconnect that community back to the place that connected us first.

These were the things swirling around my heart as the festivities ended and I came home to collapse. I slept most of Sunday, and went to see Milk Drive on Sunday night at the Depot. I went to the Sarkey’s Leadership Conference on Monday and Tuesday, fighting off a cold that came upon me Saturday on the drive home.

I turned 45 on Tuesday.

That number gave me a start.

How in the hell am I forty five years old?

I know that I generally experience a crisis of some sort on the 5’s.

If John were around he could tell you all about the one I went through at 25. He was mostly laughing at me, but also was a source of strength.

At 35…well that one was particularly ugly as I was in a relationship with a cheating alcoholic and felt as if I were stuck, trapped, and couldn’t find my way out. I was watching my breeding years fly past as I stood frozen in a life that at first appeared wonderful, but quickly turned toxic.

And here at 45, my life is really really beautiful. I am seen. I am heard. I am loved. In return, I too see, hear and love.

But fucking hell…FORTY FIVE????? woof.

So this week, I’ve been contemplating the things. I think of those that I love and miss on this plane of existence, John’s scholarship funding, my happiness in getting a weekend that includes very few things but a Patty Griffin concert and green chile stew…

Paris happened.

It reinforces the need for community, and to tell you how I love you. To profess publicly that you are not forgotten. To spend my days on work that is important, that moves the dial further to the good side of things. To be less judgmental on myself for my dirty floors and piles of laundry, and to embrace the colors on the trees and my crazy ass dog who wants everyone to just wake the hell up because we are wasting daylight.

I pray for this world, for some ease to the pain we are all in on some level.

Let us not ever forget what a gift this day truly is.



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The Curious Thing

Yesterday Trish and I took off for a mini road trop to Tulsa and caught a show at Cains.

There was a time when this was actually the norm for us, but since she moved back from Florida, our lives aren’t as conducive to a Monday night out as they used to be.

When she asked me if I could manage it, my first instinct was to say, “Absolutely not. No way. Impossible. It’s a Monday night. It’s in Tulsa. Nope.”

I’m so glad I got past those initial reactions and thought it through. The timing was right for some flex time at work since I was there all day Saturday. We hadn’t had a little trip up the turnpike in eons. It was a show I was excited to see.

Oh hell yes, why not!

Saying YES used to come easier for me. I had nothing to be responsible for really. I made my own work schedule. I had animals who came and went on their own. Hop in the car and go at a moments notice? SURE. No problem!

These days though, the jobs aren’t quite as flex, there are other people to consider in my life, and as we are all want to do…we just say no. We get into our routines (and that’s not necessarily a bad thing, but it can become the *only thing)

We quit saying YES to the curiosity of life.

I’ve been listening to some podcasts lately, doing some soul-work of my own and one of the connecting threads that is jumping out at me is Curiosity. It’s coming at all angles. From the comedic episodes, to the straight up interviews, to the deeper, creativity fueled eps the word Curiosity is the anchor.

Since our wedding my motto has been “say NO to everything but happy hour and camping”

And I stand by that. The first of the year was a manic time for both of us and we just needed some time to be. We didn’t socialize much, we holed up in the house and rested. The issue with that is it can stick. Home. Dinner. Couch. Tv/read. Bed.

I’m not curious about any of those things. I’m ready to feed my Curiosity.

Sometimes you just need a car, a full tank of gas and a best good friend to shake things up.

Cheers to all of those things.

Cheers to shaking up the routine a bit this week.

Cheers to being curious.

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And Just Like That…

It’s October.

Behind us are the months and days of turmoil. So many around us suffering a loss of some kind. My step-brother navigating around FuckingCancer. Julie redefining what her life and work looks like. Audra managing the loss of her sweet pup Wylie Coyote. The grieving over lost loved ones like MRM, the grieving over relationships and marriages that have dissolved. It seems that this summer was chock full of challenges for us all on some level.

I’m not suggesting that with a fresh calendar page all of everything is automatically wiped clean and now sparkles.

But there *is something nice about October.

It’s always been the beginning of my Magic Time. Audra’s birthday, so many friends’ birthday’s actually (hey Libras!) Halloween, then my birthday and the holidays…the shift in the weather, all of it wraps up into a magical powerful time for me. I look forward to it, refueling my soul from the break-neck summer.

Did I tell you I’m taking a life writing/memoir class? I am. Online, for 6 weeks. So far I’m really liking it. It works for my schedule, I have committed time during the week to write, though I would love to have more, that sanctuary “room of one’s own” space, I haven’t taken the time to create that so here I sit at the kitchen table. Typing away on my sweet old machine. It’s been interesting. Difficult at times. But I am enjoying the process. It fits with this time for me, the creative months.

I finished reading Brene Brown’s Rising Strong and so much has stayed with me. Several tenants of the theory, and when I give myself a little more time I’m going back to work fully on the entire process. The one that I’ve taken to heart though, is the one that says:

When we combine the courage to make clear what works for us and what doesn’t, with the compassion to assume that people are doing their best, our lives change. 

I can’t tell you how often I mutter to myself, “she’s doing her best. She’s doing her best” while I’m at work. Or really giving thought to what works for me, and what doesn’t. Am I saying yes but screaming NO inside? Am I holding a grudge or standing in self righteousness about this? why?

am I doing the best I can? 

And it’s kind of amazing the way it’s working for me.

If you haven’t read the book, I highly recommend it. She speaks some solid truths, that Brene’ Brown.

So today, as we begin a fresh month, and look forward to fires on the porch decorated with mums and pumpkins (got mine last weekend–and seriously if you have an Aldi store near you get your pumpkins there. SO cheap!) I also look forward to the magic of the season. I hope some of it flows your way, too.

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Swimming in the Memories; or Time is Bullshit.

Yesterday I went back to my hometown. The place that grew me, to bid farewell to a man who knew me my whole life.

Marvin R. Marquardt was a very real, very steadfast man in my life. And though these last handful of years we weren’t in so much of a daily touch, we were connected online. And like so many of us, we were good with that.

MRM…sound it out..mmmmrrrrrmmmm…was what we called him. He was our first computer teacher. For those of us that were super smart (onetwothreenotme) he taught scary things like physics and calculus and subjects that give me the runny poops just thinking about. He was formidable in those high school halls. He was funny, too. So dry. Good lord the man had some dry wit. So you know, when you got him to smile and God forbid giggle out loud at one of your ridiculous teenage quips? You felt like you were the smartest, most adult of students.

Yes, I’ll go have a smoke with you in the teacher’s lounge. I’m that grown.

I knew MRM before I ever stepped foot in his class at EHS. He and his family were the best friends with my parents and our families. I remember when their daughter Lisa Diane was born. She wasn’t too much younger than my own real life baby doll, my sister and I remember one night in particular, while the parents were playing cards in the other room, I was there with Taryn and Lisa Diane and thought..now I have TWO babies!~

Marvin and Dad were both on crutches at the same time, for some dumbass reason. I’m betting it was softball. They were ridiculous. They fished together, we had those awesome family fish fries with homemade hush puppies. All of the fathers who fished would bring in their catch, and the women folk would prepare and fry. My MeMe Mid would be the one to clean them, I don’t remember our mom’s doing that. MeMe was fierce that way. But we would all gather and that was the lovely part of it.

The summer sun would just be setting, the hot July air would be thick with the smell of grease and fried cornmeal and fish, the scent of fresh lemon for the tarter sauce would tingle your nose, the kids in their shorty shorts and dirty feet would be running around begging for “WE ARE HUNGRY WHEN WILL IT BE READY?!?!?!”

When my dad and mom divorced, MRM was this quiet, constant source of support. He and I didn’t do much talking about it at school, but he would see me upset in the hall and give me a pat on the shoulder and a nod of the head. “You’re going to be ok,” he didn’t say the words but they were there. He had a friendship with mom, they taught down the hall from each other, he was just there.

My senior prom (or was it my junior year–time is bullshit) as I slid down the wall drunk as hell on Boone’s Strawberry Hill, he didn’t judge. Just kind of helped me up. He knew the shitstorm I was navigating at home and while he never condoned underage drinking and acting a fool, I didn’t feel shamed from him that night either.

When dad remarried, there was a moment after the ceremony when the pews were filing out, and I didn’t know if it was my turn to go, and I froze. So it became an empty sanctuary and me, sitting there. My sister was off on a mission trip and while it was a beautiful ceremony, those were hard years for me. There I sat. I didn’t know, do I wait for pictures, am I supposed to go somewhere else? All of a sudden, a hand appeared in front of me and when I put mine in his, he helped me up and hugged me as I had a mini-meltdown. He just said, you’re fine. You’ve got this. Then he cracked wise and we both laughed and he handed me either a kleenex or a hanky (men carried hankies in those days) and I got myself together and rejoined the party.

There are a million stories about MRM in the ether this week. That’s what happens when we say goodbye to someone. We revert back to that role, to that culture of storytelling. Because the stories are, so was he, so were we all.

It’s those stories that were running through my head as I drove into El Reno yesterday afternoon. Mom and Burl were there. Dad and his girlfriend were there. My seat was saved and as I sat there, among the EHS core crew of friends I just lost it.

These people had no small part in making me who I am today.

Rosa sat behind me. She taught me to type. I still can average about 60 words per minute. LeAnn sat next to me. I remember when she became our PE teacher in elementary school and I felt so important because she was our friend, she came to our house and that was a pretty cool thing in grade school. Terry was behind me and I will never forget stomping into her office one afternoon and saying “get me out of this math class with *that woman. put me anywhere. I don’t care. I can’t take it.” Rather than march my ass right back to class, she listened. She nodded. She enrolled me into a different class with another woman more suited to my learning style. That woman, Joquita was walking in just as I was thinking of that story. Karen was there. Hers was the only math class I ever made higher than a C in. She was such a part of our life, Aunt Karen. My heart is broken for her. Bill was there, and while he and I have a current relationship, it did my heart good to see him among this group again. Sue was there, Sue who was my pseudo mom for so many years. I worked for her and her husband in their local restaurant downtown all through High School. Sue was my TAG teacher. Sue taught me how to count back change. She was the first person I ever saw with a real Coach purse and began my coveting for one. She taught me how to tie a scarf eleventy million ways that were all perfect. Krista was there. I was struck directly into my heart because the last time I was in that church for a funeral of one of this group…was her mom. So many years ago but I remember it, and I remember Pat, like it was yesterday. And now Marvin. He taught me 10-key. He taught me computer programming…the TRS-80s were quite the thing. We were just excited because his room was air-conditioned. But he taught us. He guided us. They all have. It struck me right then, just how much they have.

I saw Brooke and Tera and hugged and wept. After it was over, Mom, Burl, Dad, Jan and I went to eat an onion burger and Audra texted me. I started crying all over again telling her about it. My poor weepy burger.

I was knee deep in this pool of memory and emotion, no I was dog-paddling…just trying to keep my head above the water. I have been most of the weekend. Ya’ll…it is a wonder I made it out without the Beaches Ugly Cry. These people, and this man we were there for, they were truly witnesses to my life.

It’s so difficult to say goodbye. To wrap your heart around what it really means. But it’s part of this life, right? A stupid and shitty part, but nonetheless. . .

I am struggling this weekend with the passing of time, with the fleeting ridiculously fast pace of this life.  But I take solace in the stories. I wrap myself in the memories and know that just by thinking about them, by telling them, by writing them…they are.

So are we all.

You’re a good man, Marvin R Marquardt.

Even when you were a shithead.

Thank you for standing at the ready for me.

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Real Talk That Isn’t Mean

Last night I got to sit around a table with two of my favorite humans and have an evening of real talk. That real talk that you can only have with people that you trust and admire and love. That real talk that once you say the words, there is a weight lifted off of your shoulders or a pit that disappears from your stomach.

I’ve missed nights like that, and when I was driving home I realized that I had NO idea how much I needed it.

I’m so thankful to have those moments and those people in my life. So thankful that they love me, for me. No matter what. Just as I am.

Because the voices in our head…our self talk? Woof. They are so mean.

We discussed at length last night how we would post up and throw elbows at anyone who dared even speak to each other, to our daughters, our sisters, anyone the way we speak to ourselves. And we know this, right? We are smart, educated women who have some miles on our wagon, we aren’t doe-eyed girls who are looking for lessons to learn.

Know better, do better. Right?

So why is it so difficult to do better in THIS? Why is it so damned hard for me to get myself off of the downward spiral of ugly that marches in time in my head, and get it together? See? Even in that sentence, I start to get judgey and mean girl on myself.

None of us had the answer, by the way. Other than we must keep trying. Keep trying to out talk the bitches in our head and try to love and just as important, protect ourselves, the way we would love and protect each other.

Just the act of talking about it though? Ohmygosh. It was a holy thing. That is the feeling I want to carry with me all of the time.

Cheers to finding holy moments among people who love you this week.

Cheers to the effort and energy it takes to keep trying.


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Old Dog, New Places To Write

I’ve been quiet here most of the year, and that is mostly due to my new(ish) position at work. I’m hyper aware of what I put out into the world now and how that reflects on not only me but on my position and the organization itself.

To say that it has been stifling, is the understatement of the year.

That roadblock has been my focus. The revoked freedom of having this space as mine, for me, for my words, to expel the voices and the vitriol and share the joy and bliss of life. I felt like I was on lockdown and could only share the whimsey and the “we’re leaving on vacation and I can’t wait” posts.

You would think I could’ve just found another place to write, to use to get those brutal truths out of me. You would think that I would’ve just started a new blog in secret or just purchased a real life journal and a good pen.

But you would’ve been wrong.

Because all that I could see was the roadblock. I couldn’t even see past it to think about other options.  So I just quit. All of it.

It’s been pretty gross. I mean, I don’t need to have someone read the words to validate the gross. But there have been some pretty gross things and by not writing about them I’ve just marinated on it, churning and burning around this or that and never fully working through it. The underlying rage at all of it, usually spills out and gets in places completlely unrelated and that’s when it gets super gross.

All of that to say, this writing project I’m starting tomorrow has provided a few other options for writing. A nice sacred place where I can go, write my Morning Pages and let them live. In secret. Never to be seen by anyone from the outside world.

I have to say, OHMYGOD it feels good!

I started The Artist’s Way another lifetime ago, when I was on my first tour and living in someone’s den in Goshen, Indiana. I was in that place you are in your 20’s, searching, seeking, gobbling up every self help book and watching Oprah for the next one to read as if salvation was on the last page. I was also really working creatively for the first time in my life and wanting to explore that and continue to nurture that piece of me. The Artist’s Way was part of that.

I picked it up again, on my next two tours, when I needed a kick start, and perhaps I picked it up again in my 30’s.

I’ve never finished it.

Finally, I decided that maybe it was okay not to finish it. I quit beating myself up for that.

The tenant of Morning Pages has always stuck with me. I don’t always practice it, it’s kind of like anything routine with me. I can stick to it for about 4 weeks then flop. But I’ve always known that free writing at least 3 pages in the morning, is a good thing.

It’s like anything we start and stop and start and stop.

Writing. Meal Planning. Daily walks. Weight Watchers. Skin Care.

I know it is good for me, and I long for the life where these routines are seamless and not even a thought because they are so part of the fabric of my day.

Until then, I’m finding joy in these new discoveries.


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Creativity and Milestones

I think I write about this time of year…every year. It means so many different things to me, I work in so many different ways during these Fall months.

I remember first and foremost, that time in my life when I left. I left my horrible, alcoholic double life that was my first marriage, and the next weekend moved away to begin a new life. I met friends that I carry with me today, I lived in places, saw weather, saw roadside attractions, and grew as a human in ways that I perhaps never would had I not taken that leap.

Every fall breeze, every carmel apple or candy corn, every beautiful colored leaf, every sound of a football game brings me back to the time in Goshen, Indiana, or Saginaw Michigan or Cincinnati, Ohio. And I smile.

There is power in these months for me. Call it what you will, creative juices, nesting, Scorpio magic, any or all of the above. I am recharged this time of year. I am on point. I am focused. Things are happy and the energy is flowing and I love life.

Since putting the final bow on our LTYM Retirement with the blog post, and closing that lid, I’ve been awaiting the next thing. What will it be? Will I audition for a show and try to get back onstage? Will I take a class, or join in the coloring craze that seems to be sweeping my newsfeed? I’ve been asking myself the big questions about life, career, location. I’ve been opening my heart in prayer, in silence, looking for that meaning that I so desperately want my life and my work to have.

I’ve been really still and quiet and tried not to force the ideas, just let them flow.

Yesterday, things clicked.

I was listening to the podcast Magic Lessons by Elizabeth Gilbert that is concurrent with her new book Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear. I’ve pre-ordered the book but just started listening to the podcast on my commute home last night. The first two episodes spoke to me so clearly about getting out of our own way, creatively. I related to several pieces and found myself nodding my head.

“yes. hmmmhmmmm. that’s so true.”

I’m sure I looked like an escapee of some sort to my fellow commuters.

As I got home, my routine to get into comfy clothes, organize dinner for humans and livestock, check my real life Facebook (as opposed to my work page that I manage) and a post from a friend caught my eye.

Life Writing Class. Flash Sale. 6 Weeks. Online.

And without knowing much of anything I clicked the button and signed up.

Things just sometimes fall into place, and that has happened enough in my life that I can see it when it happens and just say YES.

I don’t know what will come out of it. I have yet to have an urgency to tell my personal story, whatever it is. I look at this as a practice, that will perhaps peel back some layers and reveal an urgency, a need. I will be writing.

I’m excited at the potential.

It’s not an accident that this comes as my 2000th post here at Misti Ridiculous.Com

It’s kind of crazy to think I’ve written here for that long. Most of the time, not much more than life diary entries, or grocery lists, but the practice remains. After such a long absence, that 2000th post was waiting for this one.

It feels right, as one story telling door closes, another opens. The one cornerstone of LTYM that I believe with my whole being, is that we all have a story. All of our stories are valid, and worthy of being heard. When we tell our stories, we give power to ourselves, we give permission to heal, we put those words out into the world where they cannot be erased.

Because the story is, so are we.

Cheers to that.




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Fall Kiss

What is it about that first taste of Fall that automatically springs me forward into a combination restful/creative mode? I know the temps are going back into the 90’s this week, but oh this weekend.

We had no plans, no obligations. We had a perfect bike date night Friday, spending time with friends, laughing. We got in some live music, followed by a full day of lazy and good food.

This morning I had a little pinon on the fire pit to go with my morning coffee. What is it about that smell that just sends me? I love it.

On a whole, the we got what we needed out of this weekend.

It has been blissful.

Today it’s really about getting some things done. I’m still not caught up on laundry and chores from the vacation-re-entry last week. Apparently, I have no urgency to get it finished either.

I’ve got windows open, music playing. I’ve caught up on the internet and news. Watched all of my CBS Sunday morning eps in the DVR and have plans to celebrate a late birthday with a bourbon tasting/late lunch with Trish this afternoon. Other than making sure I’ve got some clean clothes to wear to work, that’s all I’m doing today.

Hoping your weekend has been blissful, too.

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Au Revior LTYM:OKC

I remember the day so perfectly as it was tied into the beginning of this life I’m currently living.

I was high on that post date first kiss feeling on Friday in September about three years ago. I was giddy. To make matters even better I had just slipped on a pair of old skinny size jeans…effortlessly.

And then…and then I found out that I had been chosen to produce a Listen To Your Mother Show in Oklahoma City.


I don’t remember anything about the class that I went to that afternoon, nor the clients I saw in the salon that evening. I just remember…flying high. Smiling to the point of face pain. God it was an awesome day.

It got even better when I connected with Heather and Julie and our fearless production team dove in. We sat in my living room for that very first meeting and we talked of our hopes and wishes and what we could bring to the table, what we wanted the end result to be. We visualized the end result and moved backwards.

We had no idea how important this project would become for us, for the storytellers in the casts, for our community. I am humbled and so grateful that these two women agreed to jump on this crazytrain with me. They have become two of the most important and beloved people in my life and I can’t imagine life without them.

It was really…surprising when we all discovered that we might be done. We might be ok with letting the show go to other hands and walk away. We discussed it at length, we wrote our pros and cons. We made a promise not to make any decisions until after the 2015 show was behind us. We checked in…if you had to decide today…NO WAY or Still Yes…it wasn’t a decision made lightly.

We played the what if game in every way we could.

What if we just brought on another producer to do XXXXXX? (no because that’s actually our job and if we can’t do that job we should step down)

What if I stepped down and XXXXX (no. you leave, I leave, we all leave together.)

We worked around scenarios, we juggled names, we played what if until we were just blue in the face.

In the end, it was a decision made unanimously and for different reasons.

Life is moving us in different directions. Jobs and children and new family are shifting and moving and it’s just time.

This project takes a goodly amount of time and we felt that it would be better served in fresh hands for year four…should those fresh hands step up.

We sent in our resignation shortly after the national season ended and have held onto the info until the call for applications went public. That happened last week.

We hope that someone from our fair state will apply to run the show. I know we have the audience and support for it. I KNOW we have more stories out there that deserve this stage.

In the final analysis, we knew that our time at the helm was over and that we would just have to bless it and let it go and pray that someone would want to move into this home that we have lovingly, painstakingly built with tears, and sweat, and some really dazzling F bombs. This home that has held fits of giggles and you tube song parties, high fives and late nights and “we got a sponsor” dancing! It is a lovely home, ready for new owners to lead new stories into the world.

I’m so proud of the work that we have done, not just for our casts and our city, but for the non-profit organizations we were able to support. Infant Crisis Services, ReMerge and Reach Out and Read Oklahoma were all such a privilege to work with, and they in turn were blessed by the generous spirit of our audiences. The good feels are just spilling out all over the place!

Saying good bye is…wonky. I dread not being in our Producer/Director group on FB, not getting to be in that inner circle. But I leave, head held high, knowing someone will take my place and they will kick some awesome LTYM: OKC ass.

Until then, I say THANK YOU Ann Imig, our amazing national team, and this near perfect OKC team.

I’ll see you in the audience in 2016.

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